Why do I create?

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I have always loved being creative. Music was (still is) my main driving force, but I also like to dabble in creative writing and some craft here and there. These hobbies always remained at that. Hobbies. I’m not sure if that’s because I liked them being part of my life and not ‘being’ my life, or that I was too afraid to call them anything else because I didn’t feel worthy of the artist label.

2010 was the year my son was born and the year that changed my perception on what I wanted to do with my life. Motherhood brought with it a realisation, a sense of purpose to my artistic interests, and a reason to follow through with my creative strengths.

Every night, I would sing to my son. I had a playlist 🙂 and every night it soothed him, and I believe, strengthened our bond. I promised myself, and my son, that I would start creating music and words for little ones.

When he was about six months old, I started writing short stories and children’s songs. I went back and forth many times about the quality of my work. I entered some songs into competitions with little result. I sent one of my picture books to a publishing company with no luck. Motivation began lacking and confidence suppressed. I wanted to keep at it, but time and self-doubt got in the way.

In July 2012, I attained my most enjoyable, professional role-to-date. I became Editorial Coordinator for Newcastle’s Child magazine. This role has allowed me to explore my writing, read others’ fine work, challenge my skills and motivate my creativity. Since I became part of the Child family, I have started writing again (stories and songs) and have finally put in the time and effort towards recording and producing my own children’s album as well as sending my stories off to publishing companies again. I know the chances of having my work picked up are very slim, but I also know that if I don’t try, I’ll never know. Time will tell.

So, here’s to the next 12 months! I’m excited, motivated, and I’m quietly confident. Let’s give it a go…

xxxx

2 Responses to Why do I create?

  1. neatfreakme May 24, 2013 at 10:18 pm #

    You have motivated me 🙂

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